Thursday, April 21, 2011

“Regret is insight that comes a day too late”

I thought you should know that I've finally made up my mind, and realized that I made the wrong decision. In fact, I don't think I could make a more wrong decision if I tried.
If you love someone, why can't that be enough? Why can't things just be perfect? Or, rather, why can't I let them be.
Nothing was really THAT wrong. Everything was perfectly fixable, but now I've gone and made it completely unrepairable, completely. You made it very clear, no more chances. And I can't blame you for that, at all. You did what you had to to protect yourself. Were I in your place, I would've probably done the same.
I knew that, and gave up anyway. How could I?
We've both tried so hard, why couldn't I just see that?
I was mad at you because I care about you...That leaves a problem to be fixed if you ask me, but no...apparently I was too stubborn to realize that before it was too late.
Once I get it in my mind that there's a problem, even if there's not, I feel like there has to be one. And I hate that about myself. There was no problem...our biggest problem was that we cared too much and wanted to be together...doesn't sound too much like a problem now that I think about it. So why did I start an unnecessary fight? Completely unnecessary.
I know that none of this matters now, and that I don't get any more chances. I just thought you might like to know that I'm sorry for being so stupid and stubborn.
And that I love you.